I’m groaning for an enactment of Mercy’s Power that demands the attention of every person… I shake with repetitive chanting pleas for myself, for my family, for the world… the pressure of a hypoxic merciless, sin consumed world keeps growing.
It’s during this unique time of salvation history that we can imagine the mind-numbing weight of heavy sorrow that Jesus’ disciples felt on Holy Thursday. The pervasive, toxic foggy prowling evil with its viper jaws sucking the marrow from the bones of disciples’ souls.
Having consumed the first Eucharist meal, and the Chalice of Salvation the disciples were vulnerable. They were suddenly tossed into the center of an ambushing storm of agony. There’s no way that they could have understood what was about to happen. Here we are over 2000 years later and we can scarcely enter into this mystery with our sacred imaginations.
Let’s imagine Jesus’ tears of blood soaking the ground as He pleaded with His Father for another way to further the Kingdom other than the cross. Jesus unites our cry with His. Yes, unites because our Lord even in His Glory in heaven still suffers agony as we repeatedly find ever greater ways to turn our backs on His offer, and wedding feast invitation.
Jesus models the Way by assuring us that the path to Life is not rational. We must take up our cross. Our Shepherd and Teacher leads us through the valley of darkness full of pains, doubts, confusions, pains, sufferings, sacrifices, and death. Jesus’ Father’s Story and His Story (His-Story) were co-written and sealed with the Blood of the Lamb. Jesus’ agony was prophesized. It is bound in time by an eternal hourglass. Each Limitless grain of Mercy drops through the narrow, short passage of earthly life. Our bondage in slavery to sin is held hostage by the principalities of this world. Jesus releases us from our repeated lancing abjections of His Sacred Heart full of Eternal Love.
This mystery of Love knows no end, beginning or middle. We soar from the depths of our bottomless chasm of darkness into the Light of Unconditional, Selfless, Sacrificial Love. Our God, who is Love, is eager to unveil His Story with us, in us, and through us.
Our Father bestows Glory on His Beloved Son to be His fulcrum of salvation history. At stake was a path to reunite human wills that have been made in the Image of God and tainted by sin with His Will.
We are heirs of God the most High in Jesus Christ. What a wonderful play on the word will. God wrote our Inheritance (our will) in the enacting architecture of our human will, in the anatomy of its intricate details. We open the Scroll of Life in His Word made Flesh. Herein we uncover bit by bit that God is our inheritance.
God hotwires the gyroscope of our compasses to point to His Truth North. There’s no prideful ontological basis to giving into the seductive, deceptive temptations to mistake our feeble minds’ direction of volitional will as anything more than obeying God’s Commanding invitation to accept His Love. All things flow and follow from this originating Divine Law of Love.
Wasn’t it inevitable that if human will was made in the image of the God’s Eternal Glory that in its fractioning from the Perfection of Ordered Goodness it would become lost?
God has to call us home. God’s timing is perfect and yet my human sense making can’t help projecting onto the shiny illuminating glassy surface of this mirror the reflecting and refracting images of an SOS call to holiness. Our souls’ thirst for the Living God. And God thirsts for His children to be united in Communion with Him forever through His Son, Lamb, High Priest, King, and Shepherd of our Hearts Jesus Christ.
In the silence of the space of prayer in my spirit I’m giving myself more and more permission to mourn…
Let’s turn our hurts into allies, stare at our fears, gulp down our confusions, acknowledge our pains with honesty and patience, and embrace our tender vulnerabilities.
23 For I received from the Lord what I also passed on to you: The Lord Jesus, on the night he was betrayed, took bread, 24 and when he had given thanks, he broke it and said, “This is my body, which is for you; do this in remembrance of me.” 25 In the same way, after supper he took the cup, saying, “This cup is the new covenant in my blood; do this, whenever you drink it, in remembrance of me.” 26 For whenever you eat this bread and drink this cup, you proclaim the Lord’s death until he comes.
27 So then, whoever eats the bread or drinks the cup of the Lord in an unworthy manner will be guilty of sinning against the body and blood of the Lord. 28 Everyone ought to examine themselves before they eat of the bread and drink from the cup. 29 For those who eat and drink without discerning the body of Christ eat and drink judgment on themselves. 30 That is why many among you are weak and sick, and a number of you have fallen asleep. 31 But if we were more discerning with regard to ourselves, we would not come under such judgment. 32 Nevertheless, when we are judged in this way by the Lord, we are being disciplined so that we will not be finally condemned with the world.
33 So then, my brothers and sisters, when you gather to eat, you should all eat together
1 Corinthians 11: 23-33
